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Sept 3, 2007 20:10:15 GMT -5
Post by Alan Emerson on Sept 3, 2007 20:10:15 GMT -5
yeah. so i guess i killed scarlett
well... not really. but shit. i don't even know what happened to her. jesus christ i feel terrible. i was so close to just forgetting about it, after she was at the hospital i was convinced she was just overreacting or something, it didn't look that way but what the fuck could i have done that would put her there? i know using her like that was cheap move. i know it was. but shes dead now and i cant take it back.
i mean really if i would've known this was going to happen... god damnit. it just makes me look like such a dick. she was a nice girl and i fucking ruined it. but like, if alex didn't leave that message, she wouldn't even know... everything would've worked out. one stupid mistake.
and i went to the funeral. i felt like dying but i went. does that count as an apology? everyone was tearing up and i was just sick-nervous the whole time. ughhh it's done. i'm just gonna put that whole month behind me, once i don't have to stare at these bruises. fuckin cappie. but i guess i deserved it. and i feel bad for him. but whatever.
maybe i can get off of work for this. i know jamie and the guys are trying to drag me out to a bar this week so i can 'get over myself' but i dont really want to go.
the bright side? i am fifty bucks richer. ugh.
fuuuccckkk i'm done with redheads.
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